Lived my life at 18

I’ve lived my life,
at eighteen.
In my head
it’s so pristine:
to conquer
soulfully, personally
and be dead.
Not to concur,
unwillingly yet relentlessly,
to that which is said.

To listen,
listen to the natural-
elements of the world.
This empty heart’s only filled
through the desirable elegance of a girl.
This impassioned mind is
practically killed.
My care and love is
impassively spilled.

To act,
act on the corruption I see.
The corruption nobody seems to see,
but me.
Me,
the man
the boy
the hero
the villain,
jaded from this imperfect world.

No promise I can make
that I can keep,
hold back my poetic compromises.
I’m in too deep
for I think too deep
and I’ll write too deep
until the reaper does reap.

Lived my life at 18

I’ve lived my life,
at eighteen.
In my head
it’s so pristine:
to conquer
soulfully, personally
and be dead.
Not to concur,
unwillingly yet relentlessly,
to that which is said.

To listen,
listen to the natural-
elements of the world.
This empty heart’s only filled
through the desirable elegance of a girl.
This impassioned mind is
practically killed.
My care and love is
impassively spilled.

To act,
act on the corruption I see.
The corruption nobody seems to see,
but me.
Me,
the man
the boy
the hero
the villain,
jaded from this imperfect world.

No promise I can make
that I can keep,
hold back my poetic compromises.
I’m in too deep
for I think too deep
and I’ll write too deep
until the reaper does reap.

I'd try...

I’d try write you a poem,
to express the effects of your ways.
But no words or letters here or far
could touch upon your gaze.
No metaphor could describe the love
you knowingly impart.
Lucky am I to be subjected to
the warmth left in your heart.
Gracious is your patient nature,
and through my eyes I see,
that granted wish from heavens above
was gifted onto me.

Again

Again, I’m in two minds.
A glance
that turned my world around.
A chance
for change that’s so profound.

Again, I’m in two minds.
My heart
bleeds a familiar sore.
My art
explains what sparks my core.

Again, I’m in two hearts.
One does belong
to the world and each ear spared.
One does hold on
to the soul, with my highlights, I shared.

Again, I’m in two hearts.
One becomes known
in the variable longing.
One became whole
from the beauty I’m wronging.

Again, I desire:
everything.

Unexpectedly Selfless

I felt like writing a quite personal poem about how people perceive me, and how it is complete and utter nonsense.

Nobody sees,
The good things I do,
Unexpectedly selfless,
Thoughtless and true.

Pay homage to me,
Once my last day is done,
For honesty is my weakness,
And my trait all in one.

You grow false perceptions,
Through arrogance and fear,
Your opinions get clouded,
Due to the others you hear.

Understanding is a virtue,
Which many of you lack,
And I pity for this,
The ones not quite on track.

Yet, ofcourse I refrain,
If only you knew,
'cause i'm unexpectedly selfless,
Thoughtless and true.

Love unto waste.

I believe that "love" is just an obsession, like a drug or a videogame, so I wrote a poem about it:

Love is a drug,
And you do not see,
That love is a drug,
You get your fix from me.

Love is an obsession,
No feeling from the heart,
A subtle addiction,
That I need to impart.

Love is a word,
To describe a deeper meaning,
Few choose to understand,
As it can be demeaning.

Love is a hope,
That many long for,
A world-wide compfort,
We all hope to explore.

Love is a lie,
That needs to be discussed,
But for the time being,
Embrace it, we must.

Gig at the Adelphi representing Access to Music Hull.

On thursday the 20th I represented Access to Music Hull by supporting a handfull of fantastic bands such as: Alice and the Wonderband, Bella Diem, Revolver and Curry Coco.

The gig was brilliant and I had a really fun time playing. After i'd finished playing, a guy who ran the AToM tour, production manager Trevor Newnham, offered me a gig in Manchester playing at the Buskers Corner at another event next friday. Thrilled by this, I said yes immediately and I will post a blog soon letting you know how this went.

http://www.atomlive.co.uk/atom-live-events/atom-live-gigs/96

Much love,

Jacklebaba.